rag and bones

if you want something,,

WORK for it.

goodnight, goodmorning,,,,

there is a new day coming.... 

don't forget to smile :-) 

mine perfecting...

about perfection,,..

turn the trend,,,!

 They say that things go round and round. They say also that what goes around, comes around. But is it possible the things which go around to come around all by their own? We shouldn't do something to change the trend? Because sometimes the trend is against us and is a little bit stupid from us to wait for everything to change. We could try to change them. Just do something. Do something we couldn't do before, something out of our events and habits.
 The other day I was out in my favourite coffe-bar with my mom, listening to her problems and talking about her staff all the time. And then he came in and as I was drowned by her I couln'd talk to him. I just sat there getting more and more upset and sad. I could just said to him "Hello" ,, And after all he maybe ignored my existence like I did. I ignored him. If I'll always be there for the others will I ever get the chance to do something for my self? Just take my life one step forward? I don't mean that with a hello I could change anything but it could be something. It was like I was saying ' i don't see you, I don't care for you so I don't talk to you'. But if I was saying hello it could be like ' I'm here, I can see you, I'm happy you are here, I want to know you'. That small unspoken word changed my point of view. 
 I would not give so much attention to this but I need something good in my life. Something that could light me and my days. And that's love. So here is my heart, recently broken and casual fixed taking the risk of falling in love again and maybe get more hurt. But this time I know that mistakes are possibly what makes our fate. I used to pay for other's mistakes, now I want to make my own. I embrace them and I love them, I wanna get taught by MY mistakes. They'll make me stronger and wiser. I won't focus on making mistakes, but I will focus on getting my life back, reaching my goals, being who I want to be: myself. Maybe I'm the girl that she is older than her age but that does not mean I don't want to live the life I've been given. And this is me, getting ready for change. I'm gonna turn the trend,,!

things get damaged, things get broken,,

Μερικές φορές, βλέπουμε μόνο μέχρι εκεί που θέλουμε να δούμε. Ή βλέπουμε απλώς την επιφάνεια. Ή φοβόμαστε να ψάξουμε γιατί ίσως εκεί βρούμε κάτι που θα μας τρομάξει. Αλλά γιατί δεν ρισκάρουμε πλέον? Είναι κρίμα που όλοι γίναμε τόσο εύθραυστα πλάσματα.. Δεν αφήνουμε τον εαυτό μας ελεύθερο γιατί δεν θέλουμε να πληγωθούμε. Και τι μας λέει πως αυτό το κάτι που φοβόμαστε ντε και καλά θα μας πληγώσει? Γιατί όχι αυτό το κάτι να είναι ο κρίκος που έλειπε από την αλυσίδα που αποτελεί τη ζωή μας. 


Η ζωή. Μία λέξη που κρύβει του κόσμου τα συναισθήματα. Γιατί και τα συναισθήματα είναι ζωή. Πόνος, χαρά, αγάπη, ευτυχία, απογοήτευση, γαλήνη, ζεστασιά, ολοκλήρωση! Και μερικές φορές ψάχνουμε σε λάθος μέρη για να τα βρούμε. Είχα διαβάσει κάπου το εξής " η πραγματική ζωή είναι πάντα αλλού". Στην αρχή συμφώνησα μα κατάλαβα έπειτα πως αυτό ίσως να αναφερόταν σε εκείνους τους συγκεκριμένους ανθρώπους που περιμένουν να βρουν τη ζωή στο χρήμα, στα υλικά, στην δύναμη που έχουν εις βάρος άλλων ανθρώπων. Μα είναι και οι άλλοι που απλώς έχουν τον τρόπο να κουβαλάνε τη ζωή μαζί τους βλέποντας την ομορφιά εκεί που οι άλλοι βλέπουν κάτι συνηθισμένο. Είναι ικανοί να νιώσουν ευτυχία, μικρή μα αναγκαία, όταν βλέπουν το ηλιοβασίλεμα! 
Και για άλλους το ηλιοβασίλεμα είναι κάτι τόσο δεδομένο που συνήθως δεν συνειδητοποιούν πότε συμβαίνει. Αφήνουν αυτή τη μαγεία να χαθεί κάπου έξω από το παράθυρο. 


Έχω δει ανθρώπους και τους έχω ζήσει στο πετσί μου εντελώς επιφανειακούς. Και κατά κάποιον περίεργο τρόπο από εκεί που ήθελα να τους μοιάσω για να ταιριάζω μαζί τους, μόλις κατάλαβα πραγματικά τι είναι, εκτίμησα αυτό που είμαι. Αυθεντική. Δεν προσποιούμαι για κανέναν. Είμαι ο εαυτός μου! Και νιώθω περήφανη για αυτό!


Επίσης νιώθω περήφανη για τους ανθρώπους που είναι πραγματικά δίπλα μου. Που ξέρουν ποια είμαι και με αποδέχονται όπως και εγώ εκείνους. Γιατί είναι όλοι τους υπέροχοι και τους χρωστάω πολλά!! 


Μυρτώ :)

my song,,

I am a supergirl and supergirls don't cry.

Supergirls just fly!

that's me..

 Oh well... We all have thought about that? Should I love? Should I stay off this because it's not safe for me..? I'm asking my self all the time what should I do for being good enough.. Be thinner? Be blonde? I was and thinner and blonde but nothing ever happend! I've never been what I wanted to be: loved. Maybe I choose the wrong person. A very good friend today told me that if he dosn't want to get to know me, he is not good enough for me. I want to believe this so much! I need to!
 They say love hurts, but is not actually the love that hurts. Love heals. Rejection hurts, loss hurts etc.. But why then our hearts get broken so usually? Is it our falt? Love the wrong person? Or it's the other's person falt who doesn't love us back? Maybe is just fate. Although it's good to love for everything you will feel. It's worth it! But when you have been broken-hearted you are so tired to keep holdin in love and you are giving up being afraid of the choices your own heart makes. 
 Is it possible to feel things for someone you barely know? And is it possible for this person to hurt you when he barely know you too? 
 I saw a guy a few weeks ago and from the first sight my heart stoped. It's like I know him but the same time he is all new to me. What should I do? I'm so scared....

some good things ;)

close all the chapters of your life with a smile

 I want to be a writer, so I see my life as a book, hopefully more than one. When someone is breaking your heart you need strengh to find the pieces and keep your self together. But the real power is to be able to forgive the person who broke you. And when you do, a smile appears in your face and then this painful chapter is writen and the last line is filled by hope. 


Always. 

bittersweet symphony,,

Well, I was away for some days.. Now I am here again and I have no idea if I am ready to face the reality. I feel like everything is too much. I don't know what I am waiting for, maybe for something to give some meaning in this life I am living..  They say I am selfish and espesialy the most selfish person they know.. I don't care though because I know that I am not.. When I am asking for something, inside me I am dying from guilts when I know that I am asking more that I deserve. I think I don't deserve anything by the way.. So I'm gonna live with it if I can't change it. 
I spend the most of my weekend watching 'vampire diaries' and 'skins'. Two totally different worlds insibe my head. I wasn't in mood for anything else so I didn't ;). 
I gave five minuits of my day today to think if I could leave, where I could go? And I end up somewhere with rainy weather, tons of green and woods you could easily get lost.. I would carry with me my camera, a lot of books, my favorite notebook and a pen so I could write on it, some money to buy cocacola zero, my mp3 and some clothes. There other basic things though that I am not in possition to remember them now. But who cares..?
Some weeks ago I was feeling totally shit, I don't feel better but I feel stronger to deal with it. But I am afraid it's not gonna stay here for a long time, it's okay. Scares me a little bit because I feel safe whan all this darkness comes again. Safe in a strange way, like I now who I am then and that there is nothing worse to happen.. I only want to feel free for a while. I know, maybe I have to wait but I can't. I don't have anything to say it's worth it to stay here strong, alive. It's actually like I have already died. One part of me died and the other part stayed here to watch what the dead part is missing. Nothing important. People judging with no right, feelingless. There are "people" who thing they have any right to judge the others and they consider them selves perfect or just better. But in reality they have nothing more or less to make them better or make the others less good. 
 I felt how it is to be the person that's always not good enough. And the funny part is that I almost died fot be close to good. If people care only for what the others say and the never follow their hearts, then for what actually they living for?

Effy, 'skins'

every me, every you

with your own risk :)

Well, its obvious that I cannot control who's looking and who's doesn't looking my blog.
BUT! The reason I made this blog is to express my feelings, my point of view, my thoughts and everything else I want. So, I wont feel guilty because you don't like something or because you read something that you didn't like or because truth is bothering you. I'm sorry but you came in this page by your own risk :)
Thanks 
Myrto